Regret:

God, as I Empty my self for You, I wonder. Did I make a mistake? Have I been a fool? The world sure seems to think so, Satan surely knows I am. How they mock me. They say, ” you Empty yourself for God, and for what?! What has God given you in return? Have you become a king? Have you gained what you desire? Do you live any better than anyone else? Isn’t your life in fact worse off? Look at your misery, where is God’s Mercy for you?” God, how do I respond? 

God, Indeed. I am Bare. I Hurt. I wonder. Where Is Your Goodness God? My Soul Cries out. My body regrets. Would it not be better to be full of something even if it is of Sin and Destruction, than to be Empty with Nothing? Would I not have been better off submitting my Soul to Satan and have bread and a kingdom, even if they’ll Perish? Rather than Offering my Soul to You,  and for what? 

Prayer:

God, Let Your Goodness Fill me in my Emptiness. God, Stay the voices that mock, ridicule, and belittle me. Let them not make light of Your Promises. God Let Your Love be my portion in life. When other people are glad in their richness, good company, and entertainments, Let me Be Glad in Your Love. God, It Is For Your Love that You Have Emptied me, so then Fill Me with Your Love. God, I have nothing but Your Love, and How Rich I am? In the End of Time, kings Will Come from All Ends of the world to trade for Your Love. Yet, even all their kingdom won’t be worth a drop of Your Love. Your Love Is More than Worth my Life, so I Freely Give It by Your Mercy and Grace, that You May Freely Love me. Your Love for Your Children Is More than the oceans, We Are the Richest of them all. No king on earth, nor Angel Above or Below, Will Know Richness as Your Children Do. God, How Great and Priceless Is Your Love? If only we Knew, then life’s hardships would Truly Be a Joy even as we are now.