Submission:

God You Allow for Calamity and Suffering to befall me. You allow me to be well acquainted with Despair. In this state, Death seems a tempting mercy. Yet I say, I Love You. Yet I say, Your Will be Done. But God, how my words are lies. God, though I Know You Are Good and Love, only lies come out of my mouth. My hypocrisy, my distrust towards You, my selfishness, my self-righteousness will never let me Proclaim Your Truth. God Won’t You Make my words Truth, and Make Your Truth my words. 

God You Are Sovereign, and nothing occurs before First Passing through Your Hands. This Suffering that Afflicts me, my self-righteousness can not understand, and can not accept. God, if You Are Good, how can You Allow such things befall Your Children? God, how my self-righteousness longs to Rebel against Your seeming cruelty. God, Stay my self-righteousness. God, Let me Lean into You More in every circumstance. God, Let me Proclaim Your Goodness, even as my self-righteousness vehemently rages against my Soul and Your Love. God, Reveal to me Your Righteousness, that my self-righteousness Will Know There Is None Righteous apart from You.